Scattered Thoughts

by Misheru O'ku
originally published at 12:25PM on Saturday, November 24, 2007

It’s so hard to say good bye,
To leave you standing there,
With a look on your face that will never leave my memory.
It’s so hard to tell you how I feel,
Because I don’t even know.
The thoughts in my head are all scattered
Like a puzzle only the wise would know the answer to
I miss you
Yet just the same I don’t want you
Why doesn’t fate take its toll
Why is it left for me to choose!
I think I love you
But when you’re there, I detest you.
Leave me now, before I drive you insane
For I’ve already driven myself.
Leave me so if its a mistake
I won’t be given the blame.
My heart and mind are one,
Even though both are completely different.
And because of this is why my love is undecided.
So go if you must
I will not let you stay
For I don’t know how long I will dwell
in this neverending limbo . . .