but maybe someone different..maybe their friend. maybe the same person but a happy ending in the end. or just no end. see the shadow coast your way. oh how proud. how the ego would rise to attention or flutter down your leg. just knowing you called that yours and you let anyone and everything know it just by walking down the street or talking so mighty on the phone. so much feeling. yet so much tension. consciously you knew that this was good. some doubts but no signs or warnings.then again subconsciously that which you cannot create nor force or demand even tame, possibly guide to fit your way came to the most abrupt hault. and you lost everything. even when you started out with nothing…what were you to do