A few seconds of relief

by Bartimaeus
originally published at 11:38PM on Saturday, July 19, 2008

I sat in my chair, my head burried in my hands. I heard myself whimpering, and felt myself holding back tears.
I turned up my music to block out the sound of my own sobbing, and the background noise-level of the music suddenly flowed into my ears with meaning…

Pain, without love… Pain, I can’t get enough… Pain, I like it rough cuz I’d rather feel pain than nothing at all…

These words seemed to fill my heart’s blackness, express feelings i wanted to rip out of my chest… My writing reflected this quite well, and it satisfied me. Writing about my feelings didn’t always help per say, but it allowed me a clean alternative from something worse… I clicked on my story again, and found a comment at the bottom when I’d finished.

Band Baby… I remember her, she’s always been sweet…

I smiled at the comment, and forgot about the words of my writing and the lyrics of my music for a few seconds.
“Thank you…” I whispered softly, then began typing her a note.




  • from .:band baby:.:

    aawe so cute! it made me really smile =D

  • from Blusparrow:

    Don’t you just love it when some of your comments just make you smile? Nice job here!

  • from One Time, One Chance:

    holy shoes!
    that song is Pain by ThreeDaysGrace!
    I love that song/band!
    hahaaha this made me smile too.

  • from Flute Loop<33:

    haha i agree with OTOC , i love that song/band, and i also really like this ficlet! comments always make you feel better =]

  • from Writer4Life00nj:

    Great job! I like this series a lot!

  • from penguincaptain18:

    Ok I just found this series and I’m liking it so far. I think its something most of us can relate to. Can’t wait to read the rest of it.

  • from Dreamer:

    It’s kind of surprising how much a few kind words can really do :). Well portrayed.
    I also liked the music- EVERYTHING can be expressed through music.
    According to me, that is.