Ok, I admit it:
Things weren’t slowing down. Ha!
But…things were getting monotonous. I wanted to take it slow, but we’ve been doing that for a long time now! I held back on the sex, a lot. I tried not to be perfect… Pretty much did everything that was opposite of what ruined me and Ashley.
Ashley.
I shifted my seat a little beside Brandy and stared out te window of the shop we were in.
Ashley.
I looked at Brandy.
Maybe I should try to be perfect, don’t hold back on the sex…
But I realized that all happening, and thats not what I wanted. No. Brandy was great and all, but not the kind of person that I would want to spent the rest of my life with.
I wanted something like that with Ashley. Never going to happen
As soon as I finished my thought, my heart stopped. The most frustrating thing. Was that.
All of the sudden, I walked out of the store, took out my cell phone and sat on a curb. I called Ashley.
“Hello?” Ashley asked.
“It’s Tom.” I said. “Ashley, there is something seriously wrong with me.”