I was godsmacked and smitten. I needed him terribly and wanted to be desperately honest. It was brutal how I push him away while holding on to my own toxic relationship. I have had to let go of so many relationships lately due to death. Had to say good bye forever, for real…and here I am pushing away….what I…...
Where I am, I feel like I am dying, and with him I feel Imortal.

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