“No, she did not. I was so worried when I came in to kiss you good morning and you weren’t there.â€?

Chris hears that and frowns. He gets up and turns his back to me.

“I am sorry, I will be home soon.â€?

“Ok, don’t be out to long.â€?

“Ok… bye…â€?

“Bye…â€?

I flip my phone closed and get up. I walk in front of Chris.

“Chris, I am so sorry.â€? I say while looking into his eyes.

“It’s ok…â€? He says and takes my hand.

“Seeing you as much as I want isn’t going to be easy is it?â€? He asks with a frown that could break anyone’s heart.

I shake my head, “No…â€?

“I wish things could be…â€?

“I know, different.â€?

We stand there looking at each other in silence, thinking about our situation. I want to be with him so bad, but it feels so wrong. I don’t know how long I can take this.