Blasting the music up loud, I try to block out my own train of thought. I try to forget the words that you said.

How could this happen to me?
I’ve made my mistakes
got nowhere to run
the night goes on
as I’m fadin’ away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me?

Every word sings to me. How could this happen to me? How could I ever fall for you? Why did I fall for you? Why can’t that feeling just go away? It causes so much pain. You will never feel the same. I want to scream all the feelings out. My voice isn’t loud enough. With each minute that pasts, I fade more and more. I cry more and more. I know I’ve made mistakes, but do I deserve this?

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can’t explain what happened
And I can’t erase the things that I’ve done
No I can’t

I wish I could go back to the time when I had not a care in the world, when you were just my friend. I can’t erase any memories. How could this happen to me?