I decided not to tell Jueli or Shannen of what I was going to do, knowing that neither would support or approve of my facing Jared. I decided on Saturday afternoon I’d go and face Jared so I had all morning to think of what to do. I knew Jared would gladly accept an invitation to go lounge around.

I planned on walking to Jared’s house because it was far enough for me to think about what I was doing and at anytime change my mind. I dont know why I decided to do the whole insider thing. I guess it was a spur of the moment desicion… I should’ve thought of it out first. Its too late now, unfortunately. I feel really bad although I know I shouldnt. I’m not the one trying to hurt anyone and I didnt actually hurt someone, but I did deceive him, which is in some way worse. I pretended to be his friend, which is one of the worse things a person can do.

I walked onto Jared’s front door, knowing its too late to back out now. He answers the door and I say,
“Jared, there’s something I have to tell you…”