there were to many emotions involved. He has to many excuses to leave. He’d have more, but i point the wrong kind of flaws that he just couldn’t see. I dont like correcting anyone so much. I know it makes him feel like his kind of “power” is silently molting. Guilt wasn’t the innocent pleasure nor was it the only reason stay. (also meaning, just because i know he is wrong and could be right if guided daily, isnt the reason i stay) i dont really want to stay. i dont need to take the blame. i am way more than tired of blaming and accusing, but being right all along. i am tired of even talking about it all. but it hurts. hmm…..talking to self < see i told you so….>